I noticed today that I haven't updated you for a while. Time passes me by so fast I can't believe it... Friends, people I know, children I see...Everything "moves"! Others grow up, others grow old, others join the army, or get married, or change jobs, or change houses, or make relationships, or break them up, or have children, or travel, or...The list can go on and on. The point is I feel so stuck with this illness thing. I AM stuck in fact. I have no choice though. I have to wait...Wait for whatever is meant to come for me! I prefer to wait for my healing whatsoever :)
Today way the 33rd day of Rocephin IV. During this past month of IV treatment I had my ups and downs. Some days were kinda fun, I didn't even feel the infusion, just chatting and laughing with my nurse during the whole half hour of infusing. Here I have to note how lucky I am regarding my nurse. He is so much fun to talk with, he is 28 years old, always smiling, but at the same time so efficient and professional. Some days I had a weird feeling while infusing, like chest-pressure and some light pain in my heart. Not fun! However, he knew how to handle it and I felt comforted and safe. He also changes the dressing of my PICC line every other day, so it stays in clean and problem-free for as long as needed. I still REFUSE to look at my PICC without the dressing (meaning: look at a tube sticking out of MY arm!). One and only time I did, I turned yellow and almost fainted!! Yiannis the nurse, laughs at me when I'm scared...He is right!
I had some blood tests yesterday, just to check things out after a whole month of pumping antibiotics in me. Everything ok, so we continue as planned. It seems I'll have one more month of Rocephin and then switch probably to Levaquin. By then I should start having some first small improvements. We'll see. For now, I haven't seen any good changes. On the contrary, I feel more exhausted, sleepy, stiff, weak and off-balance. Doc says it is normal and that I'll get worse before I get better...Let's hope so!
After all, I can't stop trying and hoping. Can I?